this is my last post for a while.
im moving to Georgia on June 1st
& my computer is being taken away tomorrow.
so please leave me comments<3
tell your friends to comment too. haha.
i love you guys. thnx.<3


 


[[1]]
Every once in a while
an unbelievable sadness
comes over me
& breaks my heart all over again.
& it's not because of the way things are
but because of the way
they could have been.


 


[[2]]
I swear to God I'll never understand,
how you can stand there straight and tall;
You see I'm crying but do anything at all.


 


[[3]]
Will you walk me
to the edge again?
I'm shaking. I'm lonely,
& I am drinking again.
Woke up tonight
& no one's there with me.
I'm giving into you.


 


[[4]]
I'm holding on too tight, I can't let go.
I'm hiding, I'm so fucking needy,
& on the inside I'm bleeding.
I'm searching for something,
but it won't ever find me.


 


[[5]]
If you're a butterfly,
I'm suicide by insecticide.
If I am kerosene
then you're a spark;;
just begging to ignite.
You'll wish you never met me.


 


[[6]]
am i to die alone and bitter?
what the hell is wrong with me?
my face is blackened & my eyes are sewn shut,
with this fear and sorrow.
i no longer wish to love anything.
just cut my heart right out of me.


 


[[7]]
to my favorite liar, to my favorite scar,
"i could have died with you."
i hope you choke on those words, that kiss,
that bottle confession.
yeah, i said i loved you, but i lied.


 


[[8]]
to see you suffering, oh my god,
i think it's killing me.
& these are your last words,
"i'm sorry." right before my eyes,
can't believe this is goodbye.
if this is the last time,
i've never been so terrified.
if this is the last time,
i'll never look in your eyes.


 


[[9]]
You pretend you don't see me to
make this less hard on yourself.
But lets face it, shall we? You're
a sucker for broken promises.


 


[[10]]
no one has any idea
how hard it is to pretend
your okay but your
really dying inside.


 


[[11]]
He makes me wonder,
if this is even real.
There's a lot of questions
I'm too scared to ask him.


 


[[12]]
the sky's screaming in the dark,
setting off the car alarms.
so, take it as a warning sign or
maybe just for peace of mind;;
when you’re scratching at your scars,
i’ll remember who you are.


 


[[13]]
I'm not satisfied with being
anonymous anymore.
I'll make you scream my name.


 


[[14]]
I always pushed him away;;
maybe cause deep down I knew
he was the only one for me
and I was too scared to admit it.


 


[[15]]
when you don't look back,
I guess the feelings start to
f a d e a w a y


 


[[16]]
How can you have a
beautiful ending..
without making
beautiful mistakes?


 


[[17]]
I don't cry anymore,
&& I don't feel pain.
you can do whatever you'd like,
&& I won't go insane.
&& I don't hate you anymore.
&& no, that is not a lie.
&& you can't kill me anymore,
because honey, I already died.


 


[[18]]
you take me for granted.
i was your bestfriend.
where'd did all that go?
why did you ruin it?
[[by me<3]]


 


[[19]]
The songs they sing are in the key,
of the illusion of pain and its irony.
In the midst of lust and dropping names;;
the drugs they numb & they keep us sane.


 


[[20]]
and i can see myself a year from now,
holding that bottle like its all i have left.
addicted. hurt. alone. lost.
and its scaring me, cuz i want that.
[[by me<3]]





LEAVE COMMENTS<3

 


[[1]]
Daddy's little girl
Paints the world with her imagantion.
Daddy's little girl
Grows right up before his eyes.
Daddy's little girl
Makes him wonder what will happen next.
Daddy's little girl
Crys when she hears the fighting again.
Daddy's little girl
Trys to make it all go just fade away.
Daddy's little girl
She's a freak, with the worst thoughts in mind
Daddy's little girl
Dances in the rain all night.
Daddy's little girl
Crys all night just because she can't sleep.
Daddy's little girl
All she wants is to be held and told it will be alright.
Daddy's little girl
Screams up at the sunny sky.
Daddy's little girl
Looks at the stars just to see dreams become a memory.
Daddy's little girl
Ties a ribbon around his heart.


[[2]]
cuz i never said that
i was a fuckingg role model.





[[3]]
am i even good enough
to say your name?
[[by me<3]]


[[4]]
speak to me && tell
me something so typical
a lullaby or something miserable
that will keep me up at night





[[5]]
what have i become my sweetest friend?
everyone i know goes away in the end.
& you could have it all, my empire of dirt.
i will let you down. i will make you hurt.


[[6]]
you got your chin pointed down, yeah
you look at the ground when you talk
and i'm listening but you think i'm not.
and this is taking too long. and when
you're gone, i don't think i'll miss you.


 


[[7]]
she strolls so slowly
with her ball and chain.
the cling clang chatters patterns
with the patter of the rain.
stares in the mirror cracked
seven different ways.
with holes in her umbrella
dripping on her face.


[[8]]
today has been the worst day,
since yesterdayy.


 


[[9]]
is it safe to look within
& erase all that has been?


[[10]]
& sometimes i wonder
why words mean nothing,
but silence means everything?


 


[[11]]
i'm really is just a confused girl,
fearing everyone in this world,
scared of what pain they can bring
to me, without ever caring.


[[12]]
stood on my roof and
tried to see you forgetting about me.
hide the details;;
i don't want to know a thing.


 


[[13]]
sell me out, but baby
the joke's on you.
we are the salt
& you are the wound.
empty another bottle
& let me tear you to pieces.


[[14]]
the least you could do is take it back
all the vicious remarks and verbal attacks
cus i can't fucking stand it when your around.


 


[[15]]
you know your kiss
confuses this troubling soul
& i found out that
we're all breaking hearts
that we're all broken hearts
if only love could find us all
if only hearts didn't have to fall


[[16]]
I've come to the conclusion that
there is no one out there like you.
No one as crazy. No one as hard headed.
But at the same time,
there is no one who is loving and caring
and would do anything for his girl.
I've also come to the conclusion that
there is no other girl that is crazier than me.
Who is stubborn and won't let anyone get in her way.
But at the same time, she's a good listener
and cares about him and his past,
and most importantly, cares where he's gonna go.
There's no one else like her.
She's obviously perfect for him. <3


 


[[17]]
So brown eyes I hold you near.
Cause you’re the only song I want to hear;
a melody softly soaring through my atmosphere.


[[18]]
I never thought I could be like this.
I wanna spend every moment here with you.
You've shown me a place I've seen but never knew.


 


[[19]]
You can change the channels on your TV;;
push all the little buttons 'til your fingers bleed.
But you won't change me.


[[20]]
What if I said what I was thinking?
What if that says too much?
When everybody's got a reason;
I feel like giving up.


5 COMMENTS = UPDATE<3

[[one]]
You can throw out the instructions
We don't need them anymore.
I know where we are going
If I could just get out the door.
You've got your perfect hands
over my nervous heart.


[[two]]
That I love you.
I have loved you all along
& I miss you.
Been far away for far too long.
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go.
I don't see you anymore.





[[three]]
don't look at me that way.
please don't do this to me.
you know how weak i am,
when it comes to you.


[[four]]
They hurt her worse than any knife.
Her eyes no longer glow.





[[five]]
I clawed for solid ground, but it all fell away.
I looked for love but no one would stay.
I called out for help and only found silence.
I searched for sanity and only found nonsense.


[[six]]
I guess avoiding me makes you feel better
about how things really are right now.





[[seven]]
I've been up all night long
counting the days that all went wrong.
I opened my bedroom window.
I wish this pain was gone.
There are no useful drugs
to escape from feeling numb.


[[eight]]
she had a need to feel the thunder,
to chase the lightning from the sky,
to watch a storm with all its wonder,
that was raging in her lover's eyes.





[[nine]]
every couple of nights or so,
you pop into my dreams.
i just can't get rid of you
like you got rid of me.


[[ten]]
& I was certain that unless
I got myself together,
I would watch me fall apart.





[[eleven]]
dear diary,
he's killing me.<|3


[[twelve]]
so why don't you shove all those sweet things
you said to me down your throat,
and throw them back up to her
because she's obviously your world.





[[thirteen]]
Standing in the shadows
waiting to be found.
How will I survive
when you're not around?


[[fourteen]]
there will always be a wild side
to a innocent face.





[[fifteen]]
help me believe,
that this isnt the real me.
somebody help me.


[[sixteen]]
so maybe I like getting hurt;;
it's kind of my thing lately.





[[seventeen]]
its hard to tell people how you feel
when nobody understands you.


[[eighteen]]
i got no faith any more.
they took it all away.





[[nineteen]]
i must be running out of luck,
cuz you're just not drunk enough to fuck.


[[twenty]]
I want you so bad. Okay there.
I admitted it. Are you finally happy?
I admit that I fell hard for you.
Harder than I’ve ever fallen in my life,
& you weren't ready to catch all of me.





[[twentyone]]
i hope you watch as i'm falling down
because your the reason i'm hitting the ground.


[[twentytwo]]
sure, we had 'our song'
but we never danced to it.
[[made by mee]]





[[twentythree]]
you want me to be dressed in poetry
but imagery doesnt fit
& you want resizing
but darling dear, get a grip.


[[twentyfour]]
this made me weak & ruined my year.
its hopeless. why do i do this to myself?
i cant carry this weight much longer.
i need to tell someone about this.





[[twentyfive]]
I never really knew until that moment
how bad it could hurt to lose
something you cared about so much.


[[twentysix]]
I fell for his smile & he loved me for a while
& someday he's going to wish
that he hadn't left me like this.





[[twentyseven]]
It was the words you never said
that hurt me the most.


[[twentyeight]]
his lips taste like a loaded gun
& im his number one chalk outline
on the floor in his bedroom.





[[twentynine]]
A friend is someone who will walk the long
way when you don’t want to hop the fence.
A bestfriend is the one who picks you up
& throws you over the goddamn fence.<3
[[i added the "bestfriend" part]]


[[thirty]]
she pulled the trigger & her
mask fell to the floor with a
shatter as everyone watched.





[[thirtyone]]
For sale:
One heart, horrible condition
Will take anything for it
Please just cut it out of my chest
and end this suffering


[[thirtytwo]]
I talk to you like you're nothing special
while deep own, I know you are.





[[thirtythree]]
Talk to the mirror,
& choke back the tears.


[[thirtyfour]]
you'll write me letters,
i'll call you on the phone.
a wire away from touching
and never quite alone.





[[thirtyfive]]
tell me lies &
bring me to my knees.
tell me that i’m nothing,
but everything you need.


[[thirtysix]]
Her letter says "I'm sorry";
but her wrists say "its your fault".





[[thirtyseven]]
i've seen this before;
you're runnin' again.
it's all in your eyes.
they sold you out.


[[thirtyeight]]
Your words mean nothing
no matter how loud you scream,
actions with always be louder <3





[[thirtynine]]
Cross my heart and lie to you;;
promise you and let you down.
Follow me, I'll lead you astray.
Hunny, my words kill you.


[[forty]]
I’m broken hearted on the floor.
My tears seep through cracks under the door,
where I’m locked in and shut down.
I'm so tired of picking myself up off the ground.





[[fortyone]]
i'm trying hard to breathe now,
but there's no air in my lungs.
there's none no one hear to talk to.


[[fortytwo]]
She's gotten to the point
where she can't lie much anymore.
& she's gotten to the point
where she can't hide much anymore.
She's gotten to the point
where she's standing on the thin line,
between life and death.
& it seems like everyone is
trying to push her to her end.





[[fortythree]]
You make it sound so easy to be alive.
But tell me, how am I supposed to seize this day
when everything inside me has died?


[[fortyfour]]
This is the end of my rope, so bite down.
Tell me how this concrete tastes,
and tell me for the last time that you're sorry.
So I can laugh out loud as I watch you
struggle; broken, bloody, and barely breathing.





[[fortyfive]]
your my colorless rainbow
under a cold black sun.
i watch you fading like my life
from the edge of horizon.


[[fortysix]]
With those eyes that you throw me
& those lines you sold me.
I can't break if I don't bend,
& I'm not coming around again.





[[fortyseven]]
Whiskey in you cupboard
& a few shots in the drawer.
Hitting your head on the bedroom floor.
This is no way to live
but this is the way we live.


[[fortyeight]]
hope those cigarettes
are gonna make you cough.
hope you hear this song
& it pisses you off.
i take back when i said
that i hope your doing fine.
if i had one dollar,
maybe i'd give you ninetynine.





[[fortynine]]
This isnt a fair fight.
You've got your hand wrapped round my heart.
I've got mine wrapped round your knife,
and when it all comes down to it;;
I'll hurt myself the most in the end.


[[fifty]]
a ghost in the bottle
of a girl you thought you knew.